My thoughts on 2012

As 2012 comes to a close, I find myself spending more and more time reflecting upon the moments that have made this year an interesting, at times painful but enjoyable year.

I have experienced the immense satisfaction that only comes when you are part of something special, and for me, that is being part of the Shag'n Dragons. This year we achieved more success then we ever dreamed off and more importantly, we all became closer teammates and better friends. I truly am blessed to be a part of this team and I pledge, nay I oath it, when I say that I will always be grateful for all of them and I will always fight for them. I'm a Shag'n Dragon, and I will be so till I die.

This year was also the year where the newest Wu joined our clan. Master Avery was born on August 25, and like his sister, I knew right away that he was something very special. He's only a few months old, yet he already possesses a calming nature and his smile disarms all wisps of doubt and concern. Seeing him smile at me rejuvenates my very soul and I find myself wanting to be an even better person in my own life so that I can be an even better uncle to him. Thank you Avery.

It would difficult to speak about this past year without mentioning my job, as it has also taken a twist and turn. I have a new job, a new career along with my career in Massage. I finally have a sense of direction and a sense of potential stability that a new job brings with it. I look forward to what the new year brings me with regards to my new job and I can't wait to surprise everyone with my success. Its time for me to step up and show everyone what I can really do.

Last and certainly not least, love. There have been some low points, some midway points and one high point. While singledom remains my current state, I have reflected upon my love lost and accept all things that have happened to me. A few things that I have come to accept are:
- it hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But its more painful to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
- its a very sad thing in life when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
- its true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but its also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
- it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

I have spent the last few days doing a lot of thinking. Spending the holidays alone definitely allows me the opportunity to do a lot of uninterrupted thinking. We must dream what we want to dream, go where we want to go, be what we want to be. Because we have only one life and one chance to do all the things we want to do. Sometimes its necessary to put oneself in another person's shoes, even if it doesn't fit or makes sense to. Its important because if you feel that it hurts you, then it probably hurts that person too. A careless word may kindle strife, a cruel word may wreck a life. We must take ownership of our words and understand that something said with seemingly good intentions may be misinterpreted not as such and cause more harm then good. A timely word may level stress and a loving word may heal and bless. I've wanted to be happy for so long and I realized that the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

2013 will soon knock on our door and so I shall walk through that door with a renewed focus on the continuing success of the Shag'n Dragons, on the stabilizing of my life financially, physically and spiritually, and to find the happiness that only comes when I have found it within myself.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When we were born, we were crying and everyone around were smiling. So I shall live my life so that when I die, I'm the one that will be smiling and everyone will remember me smiling and not crying. Of course, I'd also like to go out naked. :)